Eros For Life

“Everywhere I go, in every experience, I see life constantly on the verge of death, the intensity of it almost overflowing, overwhelming me precisely because every thing is, from the moment of its creation, so  close to its own annihilation. Life exists to the extent that it stands in  stubborn and harsh contrast to its own non-existence. One who is alive, truly alive, experiences Eros for life, as the tension between what we see  as being through becoming is contrasted with the darkness, the hallow  absence—not the light!—at the end of the process.

Through this we may see the first will-to-meaning in the struggle between the secret gravity of our end  being ahead and behind us, and our constant attempt to create a beginning, an eternally present moment, right now.



It is at first apparent that everything is dying, the undoing, the negation, resonates throughout everything, a Cerberus that barks in warning: ‘do not enter, no one ever returns.’

Yet, in passing through the gates he guards, one is immediately overwhelmed by how alive everything is,
standing in contrast to the pessimistic cry that had set a pall upon the world; all living beings, screaming together ‘I am!’ defiantly against the coming of the dawn. Should we choose life, accept it fully as it is without
doctoring, we must join in to this chorus with all of our strength, become a part of the song rather than an individual standing outside, merely listening in rapt attention.

For those who would cling to a static solution, whether it be a canon, manifesto, or the words of an orator or messiah, I would recommend they take Crowley’s words to heart: ‘O ye who dwell in the dark night of
the soul, beware most of all the herald of the dawn!’"
— Aleonis De Gabrael