mirrors

they cast me in a role and i become
(change the lipstick, change the hair…)
i am not i am not i
am not understanding you
SMILE
i am somewhere else i am
(LOOK!) i am (LOOK!) i am
stuck
(broken record. sorry. my mind stutters.)

who the fuck am i
are you
 am i are you am i are you am i
   are too am not are too am not are too
     nnnnkkkknnnnkkkknnnnkkkk
I AM NOT LISTENING
(shhh.)
i am so
are not (am too) are not (am too.)
it’s all about rearranging rooms.
toodeepkneedeepwaistneckeyes
i am drowning /says nothing/
 i look over at Him and smile. It will be better soon.
(?!)